5.6.2011

So, I have endured through 3 weeks of my form 6 life at school. How was it to me? Well, I don't really think I like it very much compared to my form 5 school life. Ex 2010 form 5 ACS students are totally outnumbered in form 6 by those students from MGS and Poi Lam. Its like those original ACS students are outsiders at form 6 now. Most of those friends that can talk and get along well with me are not going back to ACS for form 6, so this means my life at school is very boring indeed. Now, I can use two words to describe my current situation at school, LONELY and EMPTY. The school that I'm going back is indeed the same school that I've been attending for the past 11 years but, what I felt now is, the a lot of the contents in it are gone. Most of the contents I'm saying are my friends. The feeling of emptiness during recess time at school is really noticeable to me because during previous years at school, I spent most of my recess time talking, laughing and hanging around with my close friends. But now, almost 90% of those that I can get along well with are gone from the school. Its not that I don't have any friends at school now, but there is nothing much for me and them to chat about.

When I was walking around the corridors or eating at the canteen during recess time, past memories came back to haunt me and I felt very alone at school now. Memories of how I used to spend my recess time at school by hanging around with my friends. But now, they're all not in ACS anymore. I understand that every human needs to face changes and challenges in their life but I'm really having a hard time to deal with this change because of past memories keep coming back flooding into my mind. I have thought of quitting form 6 but I don't know where should I go if i quited. And there is no turning back to form 6 if i quit it. Since I can't think of where else to go, I had to stay at form 6 for now.

Lets talk about the people that I know at form 6. Well, when I return to form 6, I saw a surprising number of my MGS friends who had decided to come to ACS for form 6. I never expected them to come to ACS because they kept talking about going to college or university last time. Anyway, this is not a bad news because at least I've got a few more friends at school with me now. I also noticed many people that I saw before at my previous maths tuition center appearing at ACS. I din't know so many have chosen to go for form 6 even though it is a very tough route to take. So far, I din't make friends with much people at school yet because I don't really talk to other people first. I only manage to get to know a group of Poi Lam girls sitting behind my row at my class. Like many Poi Lam students that I know, they are indeed quite friendly. Now that I've mentioned it, I would also like to say that my class is almost like under full control by those girls that came from MGS. Now, I felt like my class is in MGS instead of ACS. You won't believe how talkative and noisy they are. Even though my class for form 1 till form 5 is always being marked by the teachers as the noisiest class in my year, I thought surely my class for this year can't be worst than last time. How very wrong I am. All I can say is, the noise that my previous classes made is nothing compared to this year's class. I can't even sleep or rest peacefully in this noisy class when there is no teacher entering the class.

Thats all I'm saying about form 6 life and I don't think I want to talk much about the syllabus that I'm having this year because I felt sick to talk about it. Besides, there are too many things to talk about regarding the syllabus so I don't think I want to bore my readers with those stuffs. Come back to my current life now, well, now I'm on the middle of the 2 week school holiday. I'm so glad that I'm having a two week break from the hectic condition at my class. Remember about the problem that I said I have managed to get rid of on my previous post? Unfortunately, I think that stupid problem has just came back into my life. It made me thinking about SOMEONE again. I can't think of any way to get rid of my problem yet, so I guess I'll just live with it then. Ummm, I think thats all I'm writing for today. Hopefully I'll post something soon again at here but even I do not know when will I have the mood to write something here. Haha. Like I said before at my previous post, I did change a little compared to the time when I was writing the previous post. Now I notice that I change very often indeed. All right then, I'll see you in my next post here. Oh, and before I go, I would like to say it here that I wish all my friends good luck in what ever they are doing now, either studying or working. If you're my friend and you are reading this, I wish you good luck. Thank you for your time and patience for reading this post. Bye byeeee. =)

6.5.2011

When I looked back at my last blog post, it was on the 25th of January 2011. Wow, that was quite some time ago. A lot has happened to me and I can say that I'm more or less a different person now compared to that time. Well, what should i wrote here now since so many things have happened... Oh well, I'll update with those stuffs that I mentioned in my last post(which is about 3 months ago). Hmm, 1st of all, the problem that has been afflicting earlier this year and end of last year(about that weird behavior), well, I got it solved approximately 2 and a half months ago. Thats definitely a good news for me because I'm back to normal. 2nd of all, I already got my SPM results 2 months ago. Well, the results aren't that good though but it can still be considered as an average results. I felt disappointed that i couldn't get an A in the malay language paper though. The results for other subjects are already expected by me earlier. On 3 months ago, i started listening to some Korean(Kpop) songs, mostly from a girl group called 4minute. I din't really expect that one day I would be so addicted to a kpop group like how I am now. Its like becoming part of my life already now. One good thing that I'm so attracted to 4minute is, it helps me to get occupied during the holiday and indirectly cured the problem that I mentioned earlier above.

Ok, now what I'm going to say now is quite important. 2 more days later, Form 6 will be starting. Guess what? I've made my decision and I decided to enter Form 6 to further my education. I'll go for art stream this time because I had enough of troubles handling science stream back in form 4(2009) and form 5(2010). I know that the Form 6 route is not really an easy path but I will try my best to do well in it. I don't want my STPM results to be like what i achieved for my SPM. I want it to be better. I hope I will have the enough determination and willpower to get through form 6. I don't want to have a messed up future. Anyway, a rather surprising amount of my friends told me that they wanted to go to form 6 too. This is really unexpected and its definitely a good news. At least I can still meet these friends of mine for another one and a half year. I'm still wondering who would be my new classmates later and how many old friends will be in the same class as me. Hopefully there won't be any problematic people at my class later. Its too bad that my best friend can't join me in form 6. Seems like his results are not qualified to enter. Sad... I wish he can enter and stay in the same class with me.

Anyway, its getting a bit late at night now and I think I will need to go to bed. I think this is all the things that I can write for today then even though there are many more things that I din't mention here. Now I start to wonder how much I would have changed on the next time I write a post here? There could be minor changes or major changes. What would I think when I read back this post on the next time when I want to write another post? Maybe at that time, I would have thought, "wow, I guess I've changed a lot now compared to ?? months ago". Well, to all those who spend some of their time to read what I wrote here, I would like to thank you for reading all these. Thank you. This is it then, I'll see you all in my next post. Byeeeee, sayonara! =D

25.1.2011

1st post of year 2011. My last post was on 25.11.2010, exactly 2 months ago and I'm taking SPM on that time. Well, now it is over and I'm just staying at my house everyday doing nothing much. I'm so bored at home. I wish I could go back to school like how i did in previous years and hangs around with my friends at school. I wish I would have appreciated those good times at school more. There is also another reason of why I wanted to go back to school on year 2011. There is still chance for me to go back to school and study if I choose to take Form 6 but until now, I'm still not very sure of where I wanted to go to further my education. If i could turn back time, I don't mind going back to the beginning of 2010 or 2009 because I would be able to start up something earlier. Chinese New Year is around the corner now and I guess that will keep me occupied for the next few days. There are still a lot of things that i wanted to write about but some things are really hard to be described in words and not to mention that it would be too long for me to write them all out. I guess this is all I can say for now. Gonna post something more next time if I feel like blogging. My weird behavior that I mentioned two months ago have not left me yet. I really hope to see SOMEONE...

25.11.2010

Awww, now I'm in the middle of SPM... Feels quite stressed and tensed. So far, I've only finished BM, English and History. Next Monday is going to be Maths... Sighs... Oh well, time passes very fast. Soon SPM is going to be over and I might be enjoying myself happily or maybe not. These few days I'm behaving a bit emo. Perhaps it is because of well, someone... This person is really driving me quite crazy now... I'm starting to behave weird now... Hopefully I can be back to normal soon...

13.9.2010

Hehe, I had a lot of fun hanging around with my tuition friends today. We gather at Old Town Kopitiam around 2pm. My brother followed me to Old Town too. All of us ate, drink and chit chat there for quite long. All of us had a good time enjoying ourselves. I had also heard a rather surprising and unexpected news today. Well, I won't say it out here in case the news is still classified. Hahaha! But it's a good news anyway and I'm quite happy about it. After that, all of us went to Tesco and have a walk there. It was very funny when I saw some of my friends doing funny stuffs at Tesco. Well, after that, my friend Nero fetched me and my brother back to my house. Today was really an enjoying day for me. I hoped that me and my tuition friends can gather around like this again next time. Hehe, thanks for reading this. Byeee =)

10.8.2010

It has been about 4 months ago since I posted something at my blog. Time passes very fast indeed. Well, my SPM Trial exam is coming up next week and it seems that I'm not really prepared well for it. Sigh... I know that I have been lazy... I wish I could change my attitude or else it would cost me serious problems in the future. Recently, I notice that many things around me are starting to change including myself. A friend has come to me and asked for my advice, another friend has been treating me very good recently even though last time he is not like this and a lot more things that has changed. Even my own personality, thinking and attitude has changed recently. Well, there sure are a lot of changes happening near me. I hope that all these changes are good ones and not bad ones. Oh well, this is all I can think to say for today. I'm not very sure when will I write again at my blog here. It depends whether I have the mood or not. Thank you for reading this post. See ya, byeeeee! =)

20.4.2010

Today i went to the Ipoh court with my friends. This is a trip organized by the Anti-Crime Club at my school. It was a free trip. Since my school was quite near the Ipoh court, all of us walked to the court. When we are walking along the streets, i saw many passer by look at us because it is not common to see a group of students walking along the streets during school hours. And there are about 70 people going for the trip. That was quite a lot. When we reach the court, we were separated into two groups. I went inside a court room with my friends and sat there watching the court case. I can't really hear what the lawyer was saying because they speak quite softly. After that, we were being brought into an empty court room and was told to wait there quietly. When the teacher, the court officer and the president of the anti-crime club went out, a few students start to play the fool at the court room. There is one fellow that went into the accused dock (the place where the accused was held during the court trial). Unfortunately for that guy, as he went in, another student went and lock him up inside. After that, a few people went in including the court officer, the teacher and the anti-crime club president. They were like shocked when they saw that student inside the accused dock. Instantly, the president shouted at us asking who locked him up. He sure seems to be angry and fierce because he was a very friendly person usually. Then he shouted at the culprit behind this and asked him and the fellow inside the accused dock to go out. That whole incident was so humiliating for all of us... It was so immature. Those two were lucky because no one decided to take any action on them. After that, the court officer took us to the temporary lockup place at the court. Urgh, inside there was very smelly and many people were held in the lockup. And they all look so sinister and wild... Then, the court officer brought us back to the empty court room again and he gives us a speech about the court proceedings and informations about the types of courts in Malaysia. After that, we all walked back to our school and reached school at 12.10pm. All of us went to the school canteen and ate there since we have not eaten anything since morning. So, this is all i can write for today. Thank you all for reading my post. Byeee!